The simple thing I changed to overcome Imposter Syndrome and grow my relationship with God. (You can do it too!)

Years ago when I began to search for my God given purpose I questioned EVERYTHING
How do I pray? Am I doing it right?
Am I treating others right? 
Should I still be married to this man?
Am I doing what God wants me to do?
Is this the job God wants me at?
On and on and on.
Can you relate?
I sincerely wanted to do what God wanted me to do without acting “phony” or hypocritical. I wanted my heart to want to serve God.
I wanted to do things the RIGHT way, HIS way. But because I questioned everything it prevented me from moving forward into my God given purpose for a long time.
But everything changed when I did ONE thing. When I did this one thing I began to move forward powerfully in my God given purpose. 
I made a decision to find my joy. That was it. That was my one thing. I made a decision and changed my mindset.
At the time I was really unhappy, broken and unfulfilled. I desperately wanted to be happy. I wanted joy.
Nehemiah 8:10 states the joy of the Lord is your strength and your stronghold.
I still didn’t know what my God given purpose was but once I made a decision to seek joy through God, all the questions disappeared. They didn’t matter anymore.
One day during my prayer time I came across a scripture: Psalm 37:4- Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires and petitions of your heart.
Right then, I made a decision to delight myself in Him. But I couldn’t do that if I didn’t even know what delighted me. I decided to do more of the things I liked and invited God into those things. I invested my time, money and energy into the things that brought me joy. 
In my Christian journey, it was constantly told that I’m NOT supposed to do what I wanted to do, I’m supposed to do what God wanted me to do. 
It was repeated over and over. If I did what I wanted I was considered selfish. 
Have you ever heard that before?
But when I was building my personal relationship with God, I refused to believe that. 
I believe God placed desires in my heart for a reason and that there are certain things I like for a reason. I have a God given purpose and it involves the things that I like.
Living your God given purpose is fulfilling and pleasurable. It is not a chore. It’s NOT something that you don’t want to do. It’s what you were born to do! It’s something you naturally live and breathe and desire. Your God given purpose brings you joy and fulfillment.
 
I wanted to lose 20 pounds.
I wanted to have a happy marriage.
I wanted to dye my hair.
I wanted to create a successful location-independent business.
I wanted to travel.
God never said I couldn’t have any of these things! So why did I not have them? Because I was standing in my way.
It was me who was stopping myself from having these things by coming up with questions and limitations. When I couldn’t answer the questions or was confronted with a limitation I would stop and give up, thinking that I couldn’t have what I wanted.
But then I surrendered to God and realized that He was not requiring me to be perfect, that He wanted me to be happy, that He wanted me to be blessed, that He wanted me to have EVERYTHING that He had already purchased for me by His Son.
I gave myself permission to have the things I wanted and everything changed for the better. When I found my delight in Him, He gave me the desires of my heart — the weight loss, the wonderful marriage, the business, the traveling! God used everything that I wanted and I honored Him in all of it.
For example, when I dyed my hair I would get a lot of compliments. It was something so simple but I found ways to give it back to God. With each compliment, I would share my story: I tell people about how I always wanted to have tri-colored hair. Now, my hair is black, red and brown. Individually, I never thought those colors were very pretty on me. But all together, they’re lovely and they make me feel beautiful. 
So yes, it was something I wanted for myself but when others notice it, I talk about how God took all of my individual imperfections and made me all together lovely and I believe that He wants to do the same for them too.
All those things were for my good and for His glory. I am now living in my purpose and sharing my testimonies big and small while supporting other women at the highest level as they walk in their God given purpose through this website and my VIP coaching program. I am also currently the program manager for Happy Black Woman– a million dollar company that helps thousands of women around the world create their ideal lives through personal development and entrepreneurship.
I am Kim Davis for the One. I am for the one God and for the one person who wants to walk in their God given purpose.
I would love to support you in your journey to walk in your God given purpose. Click here to schedule your 30-minute Clarity call with me. In this call you will get clarity on what’s holding you back and our best next step in how you can move forward in fulfilling your God given purpose.
Be Blessed, Be Encouraged
Kim

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